late nights

so...ive just written 2 blogs and its 12:37 am and i cant fall asleep (if i could i wouldnt be sitting here typing these).

for some reason all the things that have happened in recent weeks have been playing over in my mind. stress is something that has been in my everyday world. its like tonight i have been hit by an emotional whirlwind. i know God never gives you more than you can handle but i think to myself that i cant do this. i feel like i am an ant in this huge world.

im the type of person takes things personally and its not always the best trait. its hard for me to see close friends making unwise choices. what makes it worse is that you dont have their other friends keep them accountable. i know keeping one another accountable is never easy but in order to be a good friend its something you have got to do. im learning that i have to realize that i cant make decisions for other people or force them to do something. sometimes you just have to be there for them as they make these decisions and say what you can but nothing more. they have got to learn it on their own. its never easy but it is what has to be done.


right now im in need of strength and trust. strength to get me through these days and to continue to trust that God is here through it all even though i may not feel it


goodnight.