hello readers (well if you read this). i know its been a while since i've blogged...life has just been a little crazy right now.
well. i have stopped helping out in student ministry. nothing against them or anything...i think they are all great. i just didn't feel needed anymore. i'm not the type to just sit in the back and do nothing so i decided that i needed to help out where i was needed. although student ministry is where my heart lies, i've been told that there is a season for everything. right now it doesn't lie there. i miss it tremendously but i need to go where God has placed me which at the moment is at sawgrass campus. i help out with preschool and it's awesome. so although i miss my middle school girls, i feel that God doesn't need me there at the moment. of course it's hard and making a change is never easy but it isn't about me. there is a need at sawgrass right now and i have the ability to fill it. so i'm letting go and moving forward. i'm learning to go where God needs me rather than where i want to be.
well that's it for now. i'll blog tomorrow on some exciting stuff that has happened this weekend......
zipped lips
have you ever been upset where you said something you shouldn't have? i know i should have kept it to myself but i was upset so i vented to a close friend...ok two close friends. that was it. but what was surprising was they already knew. they had already heard it. well opening my mouth created some issues...just my luck. i didn't mean to get anyone in trouble that's why i never said names but i needed to vent and figure out what to do. i wasn't gossiping and telling the world, i was venting and telling my closest friends. like always things don't ever seem to turn out right for me. i didn't mean to upset anyone and i'm sorry i did. i guess they just don't realize that it hurt me more than they realized. this didn't only affect that other person but it affected me a lot. probably more than that other one. so if people stay mad, i'm sorry and that's all i can say. i can't wait to get out of this stupid craphole.
