so i'm sitting here in my sisters hospital room right now as she's sleeping and i can't. it's like a bazillion things are going through my head. she's been sick and has been in the hospital now for 3 days. they still haven't figured out what is wrong with here. they're running tests and everything. yesterday i had a bit of a freak out moment (which doesn't happen very often) where all the possible what-if's ran through my mind...worse case scenarios type of deal. i'm over that now and i know that it is all in God's hands. it's hard to wait around just wondering what's going to happen. i've realized it while i've been up late at night just sitting in the hospital room tonight and last night. for me, i like to know how things are going to work out but that's not the way it is. i just need to trust that God has it all under control and through him it will all work out.
i know this...i'm just having one of my moments. well its late and time to join the rest of the world and sleep.
thoughts into the 2009...
so lately different things have been running through my mind..here are some:
-how in the world do people wake up and go to the gym? i can't even wake myself up most days...and i say that i want to start waking up and go running
-praying for someone is sometimes the only interaction you'll get with that person
-letting go can be a painful process
-God presents opportunities at the most random times
-i have no idea what my future is going to hold...what am i suppose to do with the rest of my life???
-picking a major is one of the hardest things of life
-psychology is turning into one of my favorite classes - "who buys a car with no brakes"
-i love disney shows...i'm such a little kid
-i'm scared of growing up
-responsibility sucks
-i want to be "unstoppable" when living my life for Christ
-FRC sawgrass has changed me in more ways than one
-the "triangle"
-i am learning to take chances on things i never would have before
-isaiah 43:18-19
-forgiving is easier said than done
-i can weather through the toughest storms as long as Christ is my rock
-i am good enough in God's eyes
-God truly is mighty to save
-what i thought had been weakness is turning out to be strength i didn't know i had
-i truly am thankful for the experiences i've been through...they've made me into the person i am now
-remember good memories because sometimes those are all you have
-God's plan is always the best
well that's all. random but it's what goes on in my head
-how in the world do people wake up and go to the gym? i can't even wake myself up most days...and i say that i want to start waking up and go running
-praying for someone is sometimes the only interaction you'll get with that person
-letting go can be a painful process
-God presents opportunities at the most random times
-i have no idea what my future is going to hold...what am i suppose to do with the rest of my life???
-picking a major is one of the hardest things of life
-psychology is turning into one of my favorite classes - "who buys a car with no brakes"
-i love disney shows...i'm such a little kid
-i'm scared of growing up
-responsibility sucks
-i want to be "unstoppable" when living my life for Christ
-FRC sawgrass has changed me in more ways than one
-the "triangle"
-i am learning to take chances on things i never would have before
-isaiah 43:18-19
-forgiving is easier said than done
-i can weather through the toughest storms as long as Christ is my rock
-i am good enough in God's eyes
-God truly is mighty to save
-what i thought had been weakness is turning out to be strength i didn't know i had
-i truly am thankful for the experiences i've been through...they've made me into the person i am now
-remember good memories because sometimes those are all you have
-God's plan is always the best
well that's all. random but it's what goes on in my head
