through the motions

well its been a little while since i last wrote. life has been a bit crazy with school back in action. i sometimes feel like i'm just going through the motions....not really stopping to smell the roses. for me and the things i've been through i tend to hold grudges and don't often let things go or just brush them off. life has been pretty rough when it comes to me and my sister at the moment. a never-ending war is what it's like.

a good friend pointed out the verse isaiah 43:18-19. the niv version goes "forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. see i am doing a new thing! now it springs up; do you not percieve it?"
i like the message though "forget about what's happened; don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. i'm about to do something brand new. it's bursting out! don't you see it?"

i let myself hold onto the stupid things of the past...the fights, the hurt (i guess its a family trait at the moment). i don't want to keep having the same fights over and over again because i'm going to end up missing God's brand new something in my life. i just pray that i have the strength and patience to see up to that point.