in the know

somehow i find out everything. don't ask me how...i don't go asking about it i just find/figure things out. this isn't great sometimes. there are some things you want to know but at the same time don't. at this moment i found something that i needed to know but hurts me knowing. i wonder how i could've been so blind and not seen it before or if i had purposely closed my eyes because i didn't want to believe the reality. right now this completely sucks and hurts. but i guess thats life sometimes.

new hair??

so i was in the mood for dying my hair and had some dye that i had bought a while ago with jules. well i guess i wasn't really thinking then or when i dyed my hair to read the box color "subtle black". it wasn't until afterwards that the light went off. i'm drying my hair and was like "oh crap! this is way too dark!!!" well i had to go babysit so in a ponytail it went until afterwards. my sister and her friend greta picked me up a reddish brown color that i attempted to re-dye my hair with...although that didn't really work. nothing goes over black. so now it's growing on me although i still think it's really dark.

oh wells. what do you think?!?

what are you reading?

so right now im reading this book called identity by eric geiger. i love the way the book starts off. here it is...
"it is time to move on. it is time to move forward. i am not referring to a new job, a new address, a new relationship, or a new style of dress. it is time to move on in your faith. it is time to move forward in your relationship with God. if not...then palce the book back on the shelf. don't buy it."

there it is. plain, blunt and to the point. just the kind of book i like. i think for a while ive just been stuck. stuck in this spot where i havent been able to move on or grow. im ready to grow, move on, move forward. whether that means with this new major that im thinking about or with getting more involved at sawgrass im not completely sure. all i know is that im done sitting around hoping that life will move me. im ready to move life...if that makes any sense.
im getting out of my chair and going to move again.

what to do?!?!

so last night i spent about 3 hours researching majors and trying to decide what i wanted to do for the rest of my life. this has been something ive been praying about and just trying to decide what it is i should major in. i have no clue what it is i want to do...i did assessment after assessment and didnt come up with anything. there were questions like what are you interested in and i didnt know which one to check. so after praying and just really researching and talking with one of my best friends, jules, i am contemplating the idea of majoring in physical therapy. i read this on one of the websites...


"Physical therapists should have strong interpersonal skills so that they can educate patients about their physical therapy treatments and communicate with patients’ families. Physical therapists also should be compassionate and possess a desire to help patients. "


this is an aspect of the job that intrigues me the most. i know that no matter what i do i want to be able to help people. this is a way to do it.


any feedback?!?! i need it