regret

have you ever had regret? one of the things i hate most is having regret. when i do things i think about it before i make the final decision...i dont like having regrets afterwards. right now one decision i made is continually hitting home. it seems to constantly creep up when i dont expect it. tonight it did. i miss being a part of something and feeling like i was making an impact. what sucks most is that i couldve gone an alternate route. had it been brought up or had i thought about it i wouldve snatched it in a heartbeat. but because of my stubbornness things wont change and ill continue having this regret and hurt without anything changing. its not an easy thing to overcome but im praying for strength. i wish i could just go far away and forget my problems but that isnt reality. i wish this phase of my life would end and another one would start already.

oh wells. enough of my ranting. time to face reality.