start to listen

yesterday i was reading a devotion thing and it was about asking God to speak to us...but more importantly to help us to listen as well. this really hit me. dont just speak but help me listen. so many times i ask God to speak to me, give me some wisdom, tell me what to do but then i dont listen to his response. sometimes because i dont want to hear the response or i just forget to open my ears. i think i tend to do this a lot. im so involved in how i want it to turn out and that i plan it going one way and i ask God for help but i dont wait around to hear his input. i just think mine is the one that is right. ive got 2 ears i just need to start using them. its not easy...in fact it is one of the biggest things i struggle with. i need to learn to listen. the answers may come through a gentle whisper (1 kings 19:12). through a friend who is looking out for my best interest. whatever it may be...i need to open my ears and listen to what it is God has to say

queen of procrastination

right now i am the queen of procrastination. i have a ginormous test tomorrow night and i am doing just about anything to prevent from studying for it...as to be blogging right now. i know i havent blogged in a while as to life has been insane. its hard to even get a moment to breath. right now i need focus.

AHHHH help!!!

awesome weekend!!!

i dont think i could have asked for a better weekend!! everything in student ministry went so smooth. starting saturday afternoon. the band all got there and practiced. slide were done in a good amount of time. by 3:30 everything for that night was already set up and ready to go...no glitches thank goodness. danny led the band which was awesome. i got the privilege of singing with them which was awesome. then students began to pour in for the services. i was so excited to see that there was 91 students for the high school service...and not to mention the fact that we had like 45 students at winter camp. matt did a phenomenal job teaching. i miss hearing him so it was like a breath of fresh air this weekend. so saturday--to say the least--went rather smoothly. sunday morning went well too. we had a good amount of students. i became kyle johnson this weekend because i had to do slides during the 2nd and 3rd service so we hooked up a mic upstairs so i could do both. it was great! even with our lack of leaders we managed to have a leader for every table. nestor did a great job too. thanks to all those who helped this weekend...jeremy doing an amazing job in sound, patti with all she did, jamie with the doughnuts, amy and her help with western sizzlin announcement (in our amazing western voices, hey ya'll), and everyone else. this weekend wouldnt have gone the way it did without everyone stepping up since chad, holly, and carson was gone. thanks for the prayer...God really helped in just making everything as smooth as possible. awesome weekend!!!

suprise suprise

so today i received an unexpected gift. im at work and a delivery guy shows up with a beautiful bouquet of roses...for me. suprised would be the least of my expressions. i love the flowers but am unaware of the sender. for now i guess it will remain a mystery. suprises brighten the darkest days

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all shapes and sizes

so im beginning to learn that the lesson of maturity comes in all different ways. whether you want it to happen or not, it does. it's called growing up. in some aspects of my life i would love to have stayed a kid forever. i wouldnt have to worry about responsibilities of "being an adult" (bills, insurance, etc). no such luck. im growing up and im getting all the lovely treasures that go with it. last night was one huge realization of me growing up...i watched as the high school youth left for winter camp. this is the first year of me not going. as hard as it was hearing the "oh i wish you were going" and "are you having wishful thinking" i managed. it is a bummer to not be able to go and watch as students experience a time separate from the outside world and just God focused. but at the same time i am extremely excited about this weekend. i get to be holly/carson for the weekend. i am very honored that they have left this responsibility to me. it means a lot. so while i may not have been able to go to winter camp i have been given another adventure to undertake. i pray that everything goes smoothly and that everyone at camp has a great time. ill let ya know how this weekend goes.

im excited!