starting new

well i am officially 19. as of tuesday. pretty sweet.

but yea. i have started something new. i am now waking up early to go running and then doing my devotions after that. it is now the beginning of my day. im excited because i did this today for the first time (knowing that jules would later ask if i had -- thanks accountability) and my day just went great. lately ive been a slacker in my devotions and today really showed the difference it makes. 

ive got a new mindset. no more focusing on other people and the drama it entails. instead i am focusing on God and me. 

im excited!

school

well another year has started. classes have begun. friends have left and its the beginning of a new school year.

woo hoo!

you need....

you know what i hate? i hate when people tell me what i need. that i "need" to do this or do that. what they are saying is usually something i really dont need/want. let me figure out what it is i "need". 

gosh. tonight has been so frustrating. why cant people leave and that be that?!?

moving on

at this point in my life ive been learning to move on. with relationships, my priorities, my passions. its never easy to change and leave what you know. its hard losing those who are closest to you. recently i stepped down from doing first impressions for student ministry and have gone back to being a small group leader. that is what i love to do. first impressions i was ok at but my heart was never fully there. its hard to step away from it because ive been doing it for a while but i know that it is what God wants me to do. as for relationships, a new school year is starting meaning my closest friends are leaving. its hard to say goodbye. things change. people change.

this summer has been a bunch of ups and downs. fun times and rough realities. friendships lost and new ones made. happiness and sadness. but this summer has shown me that i can get through anything...im a stronger woman because of the things ive gone through and i've got God on my side helping me through everyday.

cherish what you have

so at this moment my car is in the shop getting repaired. the day we left for peru i was on my way to ambers house to get a ride to the airport and bam...i rear-ended someone. i looked down for 2 seconds and didn't give myself enough braking time. for me never being in a real accident or anything before it was extremely scary. however God was with me. while i was freaking out everyone else was calm. my dad showed up to help out and take me to the airport after. the guy who i hit wasn't mad or anything so that was good and the cops were doing everything they could to work with me since i had to be in the airport. for my first accident it was a smooth process even though i know its not usually that way. God was there...i didn't get a ticket and nobody was hurt. and i even made it to the airport a little early.
now its just a matter of getting my car fixed and finding the money to pay my deductable. God works everything out though so i'm not worried. it would be easy to get so stressed over this and worry every waking moment but that wouldn't solve anything. so i just work a little extra and know that it will all be fine in the end.
well thats it for now. later